Terrible Lenten Poo?

This is gonna be gross, but I've got some problems. I'm Orthodox, as anyone who still reads this blog knows, and right now we're in the middle of Great Lent. So I've been trying to fast from meat and dairy with the rest of the Orthodox nation. I'm guessing and hoping that my problem stems from this and not from some permanent change caused by getting older or being married or something. But seriously, my dumps have reeked lately.

I had to use the bathroom at work today and luckily it's the kind where you can lock yourself in. Seriously, if I was just in a stall and others were using the room, I would be mortified. I found myself just sitting there amazed, wallowing in my own filth, and disgusted with myself. I've never thought my own refuse smelled this bad before. You know how you can tell when it stinks, but it's just kind of funny or whatever, cause it's your own work? This was beyond that. I was getting nauseous and literally gagged at one point because it was so bad. And I'm not just saying that to be funny.

I'm a bit concerned. I really enjoy going number two. It's a whole relaxing experience for me. It's frightening to think that I might dread having to go into that smell again. Oh man, I can't imagine that. So anyways, in another 30 days or so we'll see if it's permanent. It sure smells like something rising from the dead. For now I will try to use it as yet another reminder during this time to pray and think of what this season is truly about.